SHATTERED-DREAMS

2007-03-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

lol. this has become sort of a monthly blog for me eh.
anyway, i just made one of the most important decisions of my life:
i decided to drop from pure sciences to combined sciences
yepp. so now no more pure physics and chem for me.
i'll still be taking my pure lessons but take the sub science papers
so i really really have to work hard and score my As!
my term one results are quite bad. but im glad i didnt fail anything (:

today is rachel lee's birthday! so HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN RACHEL!
hope you enjoyed your birthday!
im feeling super tired now. im aching all over please
backache, thigh ache, neck ache, shoulder ache, stomach ache
EVERY WHERE ACHE LAH! tsk
so pain. i shall go and sit on the massage chair to ease myself!
so bye bye :D

2007-02-20T21:56:00.000+08:00

hoho. i haven't been here in a long while.
well, firstly HAPPY CNY to everyone (:
hope everyone had fun collect red packets and stuffing themselves with food
haha. because of all this eating i'm growing fat!
i bet i cant fit into my pinafoe tmr. haha
watched EPIC MOIVE with my cousins today
it was kinda funny with lots of retarded parts
hah. at some were kinda sick too so thank goodness my brother didn't come along huh
oh mans. there's school tmr
i love it but i hate it
hah. and with school comes the common tests
how horrid. and i havent started studying yet. surprise surprise!
haha. so what am i going to do eh. there's geoe and ss on thurs.
memory draining subs. tsk
all the best to me, thats all i have to say.

i guess its tough huh (:

2007-01-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

i shall close down this blog (:

2006-12-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

far away for Far Too Long

it been a while since i used the com
hah. went for chalet for about a week
and it kept raining
tsk. and i got 1274854885 mosquito bites please
itchy itchy scratchy scratchy
hahaa.
its new years eve tmr!
so i want to wish everybody
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
may God bless you in the year to come! (:
school's reopening soon!
and i haven't finished my homework
there's still quite alot
tsk. oh and i've still got tuition homework to be handed in tmr
i'd better go and do it now
so BYE BYE (:

2006-12-19T11:44:00.000+08:00

went for dental yesterday
the dentist said i'm taking out my braces next month.
haha. i wanted to wear christmas colours since its the christmas season
but i decided to wear my favour colours for the last time :D
so yea. now its green black and orange :D
haha. gonna wear rertainers next
and i told him i wanted the metal ones ok
not the plastic ones
and he said he'll give me the metal ones!
hah. im so gonna show jillian
hoho.
went to borders and waited for over an hour for my dad
and i finally onvinced him to buy that book for me! :D
so YAY! but i'll have to wait til christmas is over before i can read it. tsk
oh. this is the last week of the school hols for me
cause im going for chalet next week
how am i going to possibly finish up all my homework by then?
there's cca fair prac on thursday and friday
so i'm left with today and tmr
i'm so so dead. hooray man.
i haven't even started chem.
RAHH!! i'll see what i can do..

i miss you! (:

2006-12-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog but i didn't want to.
ok. that doesn't make sense.

2006-12-01T11:36:00.000+08:00

went out with my cousin yesterday
after 124983657 years or something
hah. met her at the national library wth her friends
then we had lunch together at pastamania
we ate till we were so full and almost felt like vomitting
haha. walked around bugis then went to town
and i bought a new bag at heeren ;D
i liked it cause its black and green
haha. so now i just need a new wallet
hah. went to borders and i found this book that i really liked
i want it for christmas! ;D
a place called here - cecelia ahern
there are two covers to the book and i olny like one of them
the other one is so.. pink.
hah. its this one
not the other pink one.

here's the summary:

Since Sandy Shortt's childhood schoolmate disappeared twenty years ago, Sandy has been obsessed with missing things. Finding becomes her goal - whether it's the odd sock that vanished in the washing machine, the car keys she misplaced in her rush to get to work or the graver issue of finding the people who vanish from their lives. Sandy dedicates her life to finding these missing people, offering devastated families a flicker of hope. Jack Ruttle is one of those desperate people. It's been a year since his brother, Donal vanished into thin air and the sleepless nights and frantic days aren't getting any easier. Thinking Sandy Shortt could well be the answer to his prayers, he embarks on a quest to find her. But, when Sandy goes missing too, her search ends when she stumbles upon the place - and people - she's been looking for all of her life. A world away from her loved ones and the home she ran from for so long, Sandy soon resorts to her old habit again, searching. Though this time, she is desperately trying to find her way home.

sounds nice doesnt it (:
haha. i like her other books too
yepp. i kinda hinted to my mum that i wanted it
then she said 'see first'
well, its better than a straight no right.
so yea. i hope my mum buys it for me.
oh i just heard then church bell ring or something
liek every 1st day of the month i'll ring.
so its the 1st of dec already.
and i havent finished my homework
expected :/ oh whatever.
its just that i keep doing my tuition homework
and when i'm finally done with it, i get more
there's endless amounts of tuition homework
that i can't do my school homework
tsk. and you know i'm not someone who can manage my time very well
heh. i think i'll just rush through then during that last week again
as usual. haha.
ok. i've typed enough for today and its about time for lunch anyway (:
so, bye.

2006-11-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok lets see
life has been pretty boring since the holidays started
and i dont want to do my homework
i'm supposed to finish them by november
and look its already the forth week and im not done with any at all
haha. i feel ultimately lazy.
i just want to sit and stone the whole day or just do nothing at all
or i can become the sleeping athalie and sleep for a hundred years
hah. like thats ever gonna happen
i have no motivatioin to type anymore
i shall go away and rot.
HAH!

2006-11-10T13:40:00.000+08:00

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ok. tell me why the smiley faces dont work anymore?
im tempted to..
but i guess i'll just wait.

2006-11-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

she hated questions like that
she hated being honest, even with herself
she had no problem pretending.
pretending to be happy was a good thing
or so, she thought.
she used to believe she knew exactly where her future would take her
but now she was not so sure.
right now she was at a lost
at a lost of what to do,
where to go,
and most importantly,
how to feel.
she had thought that love made all things possible,
such as happiness.
she just didnt realise it brought along sadness and even hurt.
not counting the amount of pain it cost her.

2006-10-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

i guess we all going through a hard time now
almost every blog i go, i see sad posts
posts about people missing people
people missing the school
friends parting with each other
its so emo and so sad and all ):
i cant imagine whats going to happen next year
i bet i'll just cry my eyes out or something

oh i'm not going to talk about sad stuff anymore
i shall talk about happy stuff
hah. went to mei yang's house today (:
had quite alot of fun there.
it was as if her house was like our house
we could help ourselves to whatever we wanted and all
hah. we even cooked our own lunch
or more like angeline and me cooked
kimberley and mei yang played with their dog. tsk.
me and mei yang accomplished much though
i drews the stuff mei yang scanned and photoshop-ed (:
so all in all we did much
but for kimberley and angeline, its another story huh
lol. they did some work lah.
hah. had fun lah.
oh and tmr's that tea house thing
shall go and charge the batteries so i can take pics tmr (:

2006-10-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

thank the Lord that Christmas service went well (:
3 cheers to everyone! especially the band!
athalie phau, charmaine, eunice, genesis, sarah
and well done rachel! (: your hard work paid off
carrolling was fun but it was rather restrictive on stage
hah. i couldn't jump around and be crazy like the people downstairs
hah. but i had fun
and i got a sorethroat ):
its that last day of school today
the atmosphere was actually kinda sad
there were people tearing and all
but i stayed strong lah huh (:
i dont want to go back to lorong ah soo
heh. its so much for convenient for me here.
oh wells. i took quite a few shots of the school
epsecially the field (:
i think i'll miss that the most
since the new school would be less spacious
i would sure miss the luxuary of running around in open space (:

let this not be the end

2006-10-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

i'm that teddy bear you threw on the ground
the one you held so tight before
but now left outside in the rain

2006-10-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

sad shows make me cry (:

finally watched finished full house yesterday
or this morning to be exact
hah. i think when rain smiles, that 'small-eyed-wide-smile' smile, he's so cute (:
haha. i kinda cried quite a lot during the thrid and second last episodes
and tricia said she didnt even shed a tear. eyer.
there was a presentation for ms yoong during assembly
its rather sad that she's leaving
oh wells. and she cried.
she got flowers! lilies in purple wraping
i want please.. heh. so pretty (:
hah. christmas service oh christmas service
you're giving all of us a big giant headache
tsk. and its like TWO DAYS AWAY!
oh man, we are so unprepared.
but its ok. we can do it!
with God's help! (:

i'll listen.

just listen and not said a word

but i know, i'll reach my limit soon

2006-10-20T19:39:00.000+08:00

3A2 3A2 GO GO GO!
OUR CLASS WON THE VOLLEY BALL TOURNAMENT! :D :D :D
YAY! YAY! YAY!
hah. i was so high today! we cheered so much for our class (:
happy happy (: (:
if only it was in the actual court. it would have been better.
hah. but still we did good.
i'm so proud of all of you!
CHARMAINE KOH, DEBBIE, JENNY, JANICE, KRISTLE, LIN YI, MARYANNE, MELODY, SU ANN [ in alphabetical order]
oh and jenny, hope your head's ok! debbie's finger too!
they screened a movie after that
was lying down on michelle and sharlene
hah. saw lena sleeping.
she can sleep anywhere, anytime
hah. had high tea after school
the queue fod the food was SO long that we decided to queue later and ended up playing UNO at the back of the AVA
by the time we queued, most of the food was kinda gone. hah.
gb was ok i guess. only attended the last part?
but yea. today was a good day (:

drawing pictures of smiley faces :D

2006-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

so i guessed right
but i was hoping i was wrong
i shouldn't have
but i did
oh and the game goes on
i ~~cant~~ lie

2006-10-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

one word to decribe me now- BORED with a giant B!
like please. there is nothing to do at all
im practically stonning my life away
tell me how entertainning is that?
tsk. i want to hire an entertainer to entertain me when ever im bored.
anybody interested?
the payment you get is..
the satisfaction of being able to entertain me :D
haha. i want to go jogging
but the stupid haze is rather bad.
tsk bad haze is making me grow fatter ):
im just eating and eating and EATING!
the only exercise im doing is chewing.
hah. and typing?
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
ok. this is how bored i am.

2006-10-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

drive me around

push me on the swings

relax on the beach with me

and we can sit and watch the sunset under the coconut trees(:

2006-10-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

~~yea. welcome to my life~~

2006-10-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

oh, and i said i wasnt going to cry
thanks. thanks alot.
you said that it wasn't everything
yea, and i ~~believe~~ you

lalalah~
1.30 :D :D

2006-10-12T18:37:00.000+08:00

results ~~were~~ are bad.
hah. failed a few papers.
the most impt ones
but whatever.
i'm not going to cry over it anymore, hopefully
i shall be happy and just forget about it yea (:
founder's day's tmr
down for carpark duty
marshalling at boundary rd
hah. stick out my hands and force the cars to stop
lol. have to wear full u and gloves
how hot is that!
under the scorching sun somemore.
hah. i'm gonna down in my own pespiration.
HAH! :D

i survived
but can i live?

i've been counting all this while(:
5. 15 soon. soon enough(:
IMY

2006-10-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

i thought everything was going to be right from now
but i guess i was too naive
cause i forgot that you were still here to crush my dreams
or rather i didn't think you would

well, i had lots of fun yesterday(:
we cycled so much till our butts hurt
hah. cycled all the way to the end of the road
movie was kinda nice
watched scoop in the end
some parts were really funny
arcade was fun
ddr and that drum thing
hah. i forgot the name
that about sums it all.
it a few words

today was slacking day
we played cards for alomost the whole day
with a little volley in between(:
hah. cut hair after school
not the length though
just thinned it(:
so now it feels much lighter.
yepp. my sentences are rather short
i'm not in the mood to say alot now
i just felt like typing so yea..

i'll wipe away the tears
but its still gonna be hard

im counting(:
52

2006-10-08T21:38:00.000+08:00

YAY! the haze cleared! :D
THANK GOD!
so tmr will be a good day(:
lalalalah
off to cycle tmr
cycle cycle and finally lose all the fats i put on
esp during the exam period while i kept studying and eating
hopefully i'll be able to tan too
im getting whiter and whiter. tsk
dont think we'll be watching world trade centre tmr
cause mary's already watched it
hah. we shall just watch some other nice show then (:
oh i'm going to cut my hair on tuesday
like finally after such along time(:
dont think'im gonna cut it shorter
just layer it and make it thinner

yepp. off for now (:

oh im so gonna miss you

2006-10-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

my second post for the day(:
the haze is bad!!
dear God, i pray that the winds will blow it away. amen
i really hope it doesnt ruin my plans to head for the beach on monday
like what the point of cycling inthe haze
its dumb.
hah. just like what maryanne said,
hope the land and sea breezes keep the haze away
hah. that what you get from a geography student eh
SHOO HAZE SHOO! tsk.

2006-10-07T12:54:00.000+08:00

im finally back after the long exam period(:
it feels so free
well at least for now
was just flipping through the newspaper and saw my horoscope for the week ahead
though i dont really believe i such stuff, this one seems kinda true

GEMINI (may21-june21)
Avoid the temptation to run away or escape from your current reality. (somethiing which i tend to do very often. heh.) Stand strong, hang in there and bravely fight your way through it.

it does seem rather true doesnt it?
especially when the results come out.
but for now, i'd rather enjoy my long-awaited freedom
even if its short
went out with kim sarah rachel and her sis yesterday
im lazy to elaborate but i have to say i had a geat time
yepp.
highlights of the day:
kfc - when rachel told us some funny story and sarah almost spat her food at me! hah
carrefour- when we were try out all those sunglasses
yamaha (after kim rach and her sis left) - go figure(:
hah. so yea.
had a good time with them(:
the haze is getting worse
everything is just so blur and .. hazy. lol
i hope it wont ruin my plans of going to the beach on monday
oh and i want to watch WORLD TRADE CENTRE
it seems so interesting
hah. i hope can watch that on monday too yea?
then i'll bring along a box of tissue cause i think i may just cry
and i dont want to end up like that time when i was watching 'i not stupid too'
hah. so i just hope that the haze will go away, ~~come again~~ another day..

i need sometime to sort myself out

2006-09-22T20:00:00.000+08:00

i'm in the 'i-just-want-to-sit-down-and-do-nothing' kind of mood now
just partically stonning half the time
and surprisingly i lost my appetite again
hah. for someone who really loves food, thats rather odd
but oh wells.
haven't been eating proper lunches lately
so yea.
today's paper 1 was rather bad
dont feel like elaborating anyway
played volley with quite a number of people after school
but instead of using a volley ball we used a soccer ball
cause we couldn't find any volley balls
the soccer ball was rather soft for a soccer ball
but very hard for a volley ball
our arms and palms were like totally sore
hah. but it was really fun
making me forget about the exams and all
im wishing that the exams were over when they only just started

oh, i just can't help it

2006-09-18T18:28:00.000+08:00

hah. tell me, do we have good taste or do we just have good taste?
guess what? jacintha and i changed to the same blogskin again
this is the second time please
the first time was the beautiful disaster one
hah. as said, great minds DO think alike (:
had chinese oral today.
my teacher was ms seah!
it was supposed to be hou lao shi!
i was so scared when i got ms seah please
thank goodness the conversation had nothing to do with cca. hah
oral was kind of bad but at least the passage wasnt that difficult
most of my answers to her questions were like the same
well, lookng on the bright side, no more orals for the rest of the year (:

SMILE :D

2006-08-31T20:57:00.000+08:00

this week has been..
not that good.
well at least today wasnt that bad
and i just found out that paul got in and joakim got out
how wonderful (:
[no insult to all the joakim fans though]
anyway, back to today
teachers day celebration overshot by more than an hour?
went back to primary school
met my p6 classmates
hah. roamed around the school with ivy for a while
met jeryl felicia and the rest of the people
the guys looked rather tall.
but its alright cause im still taller than some of them (:
hah. pin hui kept me company till 5
cause i had to wait for my brother
THANKS PIN (:
oh. the holidays are here
time to study. even though i dont feel like it
so yea. all the best to me
hopefully the holidays will cheer everyone up.

im angry, irritated

frustrated,annoyed

and just basically

pissed off with you

and i seriously ~~cant~~ stand it any more

2006-08-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

blogger is irritating
or is it my computer?
whatever it is, its irritating. tsk.
results are stressing me out
i finally concluded something:
if you improve in one subject, you'll deprove in another
so what the point of improving.
we study so hard just to fail.
how logical eh.
hard work just doesn't pay off
ugh. this sounds so depressing.
i shall not talk about it anymore.
hah. today was a good day.
due to EV teachers couldnt make it for their lessons
so we had many free periods (:
played captains ball during gb
hah. jenny was irritating and acting pro
but shes not bad lah huh.
lol. jenny should be honoured that i praised her
she'll get ego soon.
wells. im bored and there's nothing entertaining to do
i might as well go to sleep
goodnight and goodbye world.

2006-08-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy girl
well at least i try to be
but its not easy

today was kinda alright, i guess
i finally finished all the tests for the term
and the terms ending two weeks time
that means the holidays are coming
thats good.
and bad.
because that means that our year end papers are coming
and thats not nice
ok. i think im talking nonsense
and lots of crap
i better stop here

2006-08-08T15:57:00.000+08:00

it's a happy day (:

woke up super early today
to gel my hair and to try putting in my contacts which i bought for one day
hah.
spent 15 minutes gelling my hair
gave up on the contacts after trying for more thann 20 mins
hah. in the end i just wore my pretty specs
spectacles are still the best! (:
haha. parade went well.
glendI said my face turned white?!
hah. didnt even realise.
i was busy sucking the fox sweet i stole from glennice
hoho. it tasted nice (:
haha. had colours award ceremony after that
cheered for our gb seniors!
so many of them ok! (:
after that was performances and singing of national day songs
haha. it was so fun! we screamed and shouted and sang super LOUD
got really high and crazy
jacintha said that my face turned red pls
hah. during parade white, now red.
so national day. HAH
oh! jacintha and i went high and saluted to the national flag while singing the songs
hah. HAPPY HAPPY!
madeline was crazy too. i think we were just a insane bunch of kids.
hah. did spastic actions with eunice to the song where i belong
'where we WALK together HAND IN HAND towards a future so bright'!
haha. had lots of fun
yepp. changed out after that
gosh my hair was so disgusting
half hard half soft. hah
stuck tatoos on my face and hand
lol. then headed off to heartland with kim, rach and her sis
yepp. ate at delifrance then went home
hah.
all in all, its been a happy happy day.
so far (:

smiley faces (:

2006-08-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

in the blink of an eye
the week flew by
so many things happening
all at the same time
oh wells.
been really tired due to ndp
but its fun
hah. i like.
hah. heard that coloured specs are not allowed
hoho. i think i'll have to go blind on tuesday.
hah. we'll see.
common tests are starting
or more like already started
time for me to start studying again
i've counted and i realised that i've got 100 pages of geog text to study
excluding the guide book and notes
all the best to me
pure geog and chem on next friday
to killer memory subjects
i can just die
hah.
i'm bored and i've got nothing else to say
so goodbye dear world

2006-07-29T14:35:00.000+08:00

the weather seems quite nice today (:
i like the wind. hah
going to plmc tonight again.
reminds me of my phone.

oh wells.
i hope i'll find it.
hah. but i already know i cant lah huh.
its been almost one week
somehow i managed to survive.
hopefully i can get my new sim card soon.
yepp.
going to plmc for their youth service.
hah. heard that it'll be nice cause we'll have some movie to watch.
hah. i guess i'll stop here
got nothing much to say anyway
and i'll have to do my homework
BYE! (:

2006-07-24T20:07:00.000+08:00

RAHH!!
i lost my phone! i lost my phone! i lost my phone!
i feel so upset, so lost, so heartborken, so angry, so irritated, so frustrated, so pathetic.
i just feel so.. UGH!
oh wells, i pray that some kind soul would come and give it back to me ):
i miss my phone so much please.
it like when i went to dental today, i felt so lost without it.
rahh. i can conclude that i am one pathetic girl.
its like i dont even know how it got lost
it just mysteriously disappeared.
i was holding it one minute and the next minute it was gone.
while i was searching for it one lady came up to me and helped me try to find it
so sweet of her! she even prayed for me (:
i pray i can find back my phone..
i keep thinking i'll get it back.
fine. maybe i'm just living in self denial or whatever you call it
i don't care. i'd rather live in self denial and keep on hoping i'll get it back
when i lost the phone i couldn't believe it at all.
like i lost everything. everything INSIDE the phone.
whatever that was important to me.
RAHH!! i miss my phone! i want it back!

i felt i lost almost everthing.

everything that really mattered to me.

2006-07-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

haven updated for some time
hah. i've been very lazy
oh wells, im here now anyway.
changed to cbox cause this skin couldn't fit my tagboard
i still prefer tagboard cause so far i haven encountered any problems using it
in my opinion, cbox has rather alot of problems. hah.
i sound like im writing some arugmentative essay:
'in my opinion, technology has indeed brought more solutions than problems..'
haha. ok. that was nonsense.
reminds me.. the english essay was screwed
didnt even know what to write. hah.
going to plmc tomorrow
sadly the time slot's different from kim and rach
but at least the whole PEACE platoon's together (:
we are rather united i must say.
hah. after that i'll have to rush off to my grandma's house for horrible maths tuition
i see no point in having tuition cause i'll still fail my maths
but i just go to make my parents happy
see im such a nice daughter am i?
lol. i bet if they read this they will scold me and tell me tuition will help and blah blah blah.
but like they'll ever get to read it anyway
haha. ok. now off to TRY to do some homework..

~~im still counting~~

2006-07-08T11:57:00.000+08:00

haven't blogged in a while
ha. the marathon was rather sucessful (:
although there we screw ups here and there every was fine in the end
ha. enjoyed the last day
so many pl lites were just singing together
i cant believe we sang our school song so loudly
ha. normally no one would even open their mouths
maybe the school compound just isnt suitable lah huh
hah. just came back from pl primary
did some marshaling at plmc then drove us to the pri school
ha. our secondary school looks rather crammed
but like haven built finished yet
ate stuff there and watch guzheng perform
eunice ate like how many custard puffs please
i bet got at least 8. ha
lol. ms ho played hop-scotch with us
so funny. and our wallets kept bouncing off the square that we wanted to throw
or more like her wallet and my umbrella/tissue/key-chain thing
i kept changing the item cause all like lousy
ha. yea.
then me and kim went to give out fruit cakes
while the rest went home
ha. we ended up giving two boxes of fruit cakes to the band
hoho. there were rather alot left over so we went to find people to give to
and some of them were really nice to take alot
so in the end we somehow managed to distribute all.
ha. now i'm bored and stonning at home.
so much homework to do but i just dont feel like doing?
ha. i shall go jogging later. good idea. (:

i konw if i give in
it might be less painful
but i just cant
i've given in so many times
BUT this time
i wont give in to you

2006-06-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

PL 90-HOUR MUSIC MARATHON
THURSDAY 29 JUNE 7pm to
MONDAY 03 JULY 1pm!
@ MILLENIA WALK

Everybody come and support us! (:
haha. i wanted to go for opening ceremony
but i can't.
thanks to stupid chinese tuition
ugh.
well its like starting in about 15 minutes time
haha. so exciting (:
our class is performing on

SATURDAY
1-3pm (:

come and support us everyone!
it'll be fun. hah
im performing for the gb one too!

SUNDAY
12-12.30pm (:

haha. its so fun.
going for closing ceremony too
so im like going 3 days.
i must as well stay there
i dreamt that i booked a hotel there you know
then everyday watch people sing
how cool! haha.
if only i could do that eh.

im still deciding if i should go.

2006-06-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,
or, saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart.
if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own.
When you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someonewith everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much.
For fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid.
Afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will befound out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would havedone, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to tell those you love that you love them?

received part of this in the mail
i guess it got me thinking and all
its like. i guess all these are kinda true
the feelings we deny
they lies we tell because we're afraid
its just part of human nature?
so it's like we ought to overcome these feelings
and be true to ourselves
our heart.

~~you will always be in my heart~~

~~because..~~

2006-06-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

ok. continue my life update
lol.

SATURDAY

met tricia nd elizabeth for breakfast at macs
when to michelle's house early to touch up geog project
haha. painted nails
i painted one hand black lol
then played DDR til the rest of the classmates came
had music marathon practise
yepp. played more DDR
ha. then we left for class dinner at marina south
wanted to go bowling but there were no more lanes
so we went to arcade for a while
then went to eat steamboat buffet
lol. we had to go and cut up the half live crabs ourselves
me maryanne elizabeth and tricia took the crabs and went to the sink
all those cutting we like big adults or should i say men

lol. then we 4 small girls like dont know what to do
haha. mary cut i washed and kinda cleaned it
fortunately while we were cutting halfway some guy came to help us
yea. it was quite fun actually
ate our fill and then we left
kim me maryanne and tricia went to walk walk
hah. we walked ALOT
more than what we walked on friday
then we reached a park
took pictures there. the light came out green on the camera
it was so weird
hah. we did nonsensical shots and all
tried to find our way out but we kinda got a little confused
finally we managed to walk to the bus stop and take a bus to the mrt
it was a kinda fun exprience (:
hah. enjoyed it.
shall ask them to send me the pics (:

TODAY

hah. there were no lessons today
slacked around and talked alot
but lessons start tomorrow. bleh.
anyway..
there are two main highlights of the day
lets begin with
CHANGE OF TIMETABLE
eee. i totally hate this timetable
there's like three 8.30 recesses
ugh. disgusting
and i end lessons late on 2 days
monday and friday
argh.
but thankfully i have 1 miserable reflection period
but still its better than nothing
yea. second highlight
we've got a new classmate
shifted from 3b2
cause i guess she too smart or something
lol. now our class has 41 people.
rather weird number
yepp.
i guess thats about all
ive got to go rush on my holiday homework again

you

doing that thing you do

breaking my heart into a million pieces

like you always do

and you

dont mean to be cruel

you never even knew about the heartache

ive been going through

but i try and try to forget you girl

but its just so hard to do

everytime you do that thing you do

2006-06-26T14:59:00.000+08:00

hohoho.
im in the library now.
waiting for the ms kok's modular workshop to start.
haha.
this comuter is so hard to use.
im bored.
lol. i shall update on the past few days of my life.

FRIDAY

when to michelle's house to do geog project
it takes freaking long to walk to her house from the mrt
me eli and tricia were complainig like MAD
ha. yea
reached michelle's house and slacked alot.
oh yar!
her room is like a total teenagers room.
her enitre was was filled up with jessie macartney posters
$200 in total
ha
she even has a personal toilet lol
and 4 tvs in er house. ha
we played DDR at her house
lol. so fun please
michelle is good.
but she stomps very hard
haha
yea
we like started work only after lunch
and crapped at the same time
tease michelle about clayton and all the clay
lol.
then kinda did work till 10.
we left the house at 10+ after playing more DDR
lol.
we walked out in the dark and tricia and elizabeth were acting like ah bengs
but to me they looked more like octopus
ha. we kinda got lost
and walked and walked and walked
saw this super nice house
it looked so modern and so fashionable
ha. tricia started fantasing
ha. like saying that if we really cannot find our way we should knock on their door
then one caucasian will open the door
he would have 3 cute and handsome sons
haha
and all the nonsense
lol. finally we kinda got out of the maze of houses and we realised we walked two bustops awya from the one we were supposed to walk to
ha
cool man.
well reached home at 11+

shall go home and update on saturday.
must go for ms kok's modular now
ugh.

2006-06-21T16:58:00.000+08:00

ha
i just took a look at my list of homework and i realised i only did one.
no actually two.
e maths and the chem notes
but i did finish copying the notes.
i was too lazy?
hoho
well at least i started on that
i'm still got tons more to do
but i dont feel like doing them
no mood i guess
especially physics and chem
so disgusting
and somehow i can't find my physic textbook
so how am i going to do the ten year series worksheet
eyer.
why cant the teachers just let us rest
and not give any homework
an i just remembered
i've still got maths test when school reopens
UGH
disgusting.

2006-06-20T15:46:00.000+08:00

its like all a mess now
everything's just so confusing
so tiring
i dont know what to do
i dont know what to think anymore

~~hvae you fogoetrtn?~~

~~wlel i hevan't~~

~~i slitl rebmeemr~~

~~the wfneruodl moremeis we serhad~~

~~tehy mnaet aolt to me~~

~~but do tehy eevn maen a tinhg to you?~~

2006-06-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

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idontknowanymore

you'vechanged

andimisstheoldyou

2006-06-14T10:27:00.000+08:00

Who Am I - Casting Crowns

Who am I
That the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I
That the bright and morning star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what you've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who you are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still you hear me when I'm calling
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling
And you've told me who I am
I am yours
I am yours

Who am I
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again

Who am I
That the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what you've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who you are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still you hear me when I'm calling
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling
And you've told me who I am
I am yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what you've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who you are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still you hear me when I'm calling
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling
And you've told me who I am
I am yours

I am yours
I am yours

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am yours
I am yours

2006-06-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

sec four farewell was on the 11th
everything was so chaotic and all
me and kim were so stressed up
i like cried once before the thing even started
another time before dinner
and after everything
tears tears and more tears
all the new heads were announced.

PC
love - serena (:
joy - valerie (:
peace - genesis (:

Comm. Heads
devo - rachel (:
pub - kim (:
drill - melo (:
inventry - jenny (:
service- jac (:

Sqd Leaders
1 - pei xuan
2- fu mei
3 - clarice
4- druailla

5- denise
6- rosabelle
7- athalie phau
8- clara

9- me
10- sabrina
11- candice
12- ching fang

CSM - MEI YANG (:

ha. i changed sqd.
i cried like mad pls.
cried and cried non- stop
almost all the sec 3s cried
so many move ments this year. sigh
i will totally miss sqd 11
but i guess i'll have to learn to accept it
accept the fact that i've already changed sqd
to tell the truth
its hard
really really hard
but i guess i God must have put me there for a purpose and all
and like i try my best to make sqd 9 a great and wonderful sqd
it will be the 2nd best sqd in gb! (x
squad 11 will always remain the best
in my heart.
yea
i guess all i need now is time
time time and more time
cried again last night
i will take a while to get used to it i suppose
but i will learn
yes i will learn

Dear Father
please give me the ~~strength~~ to carry on
i pray that You would help me Lord.
give me Your ~~peace and comfort~~
and grant me the wisdom to lead the squad well
Amen

2006-05-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

preparation for maths and science funtasia
tiring process i must say
well only for my group i think
we had to poke all those holes in the cups
ha. and had to bring them home somemore
gosh. crazy nonsense
poked my self twice.
tomorrow still need to go school early to put up the extra decoration
bleh.
got back my report book today
my L1R5 is some wonderfully high number
i think i'll go to ITE
my parents are so gonna faint when they is it.
which is like in a few minutues time?!
all the best to me.

~~ive been holding back these words for so long~~
i dont want to say it but somehow i guess i have to
i just cant stand your character
your attitude
how you spfa
its been like this for very long
i dont want to be saah
i dont want to bmy
but somehow i cant help it anymore
ok. maybe you just wanted to sutts
but H.
hcyshafm
isoyn.
first it was W then T then B C even MJK
what do you really what
n i E.
i cant take it anymore
just get lost
get your own life
i dont want to hyf
i really dont
so dont force me to do it

2006-05-19T22:14:00.000+08:00

everything just seems so meaningless now
i'm on the verge of giving up
just letting go of everything
whatever i do just seems so useless
maybe i should just forget it
forget it all
its all a happy facade
the pretence of happiness i show on my face
i guess its been so often its gotten natural
i dont show my true emotions anymore
its not worth it
i'd rather continue with this pretend way i live
and just hide myself deeper inside

2006-05-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

i screwed up.
just screwed up.
at least its all over.
dont want it to ever happen again.
so many things going on this week
been really busy, stressed, overworked
the tears they just seem to flow
can control my emotions these few days
it the time where everything just has to go wrong.
i feel so lousy
my results just cant make it
its like. UGH.
don't know what to say.
its just.
so demoralizing
depressing
PATHETIC

~~i guess you try to advice me and give me a choice~~
but somehow its seems that no matter what i have to foolow what you want me to do
you make it seem that if i choose my own way im so gonna regret it
and when i look back, realise i should have listened to you
yea. i know its all 'food my own good'. ive listened to it before
fine. whatever. in the end i'll have to follow your ways again
but cant you jus stop making me cry
im sick and tired of crying every other day.
why dont you try it yourself.
yes. i understand that you're tired and drained
but you're not the only one.
ive got so many things on my mind
and you come add to the load
ive been trying to hold back all those cold bitter tears
but i guess you just have to break me

2006-05-05T19:47:00.000+08:00

RAHH!!
all the common tests and all! x(
im going crazy
too much studying is bad for health.
lol. anyway..
HAPPY FIFTHTEENTH BIRTHDAY TRICIA!! x)
lol. today school made us leave early.
so irritating. went to heartland with kim and rach
the bus stop was like SO crowded.
wanted to cab there but there were so many ppl cabbing.
so in the end we decided to walk
walked for 4 bus stops.lol
then ran for the bus.
haha.
ate at yoshi
havent been eating there for a long time.
yea. supposed to study
but after eating only left v little time
rach kinda studied while i stoned
heh. then went to cold storage to get some stuff.
they went home while i went to macs to study
met siang ying si yi and other ppl there
studied for a while then went home
lol. tomorrow's ELECTION DAY!!
yay! x)
i want THAT party to win!!
lol. THE OTHER party is ok but i prefer THAT party.
lol. shall not name lah huh..
later i get sued! AHHHH!
haha. but the release of results clashes with my saturday show! x(
shall on the two tvs. haha.
im tired and im lazy to blog anymore. heh.

Carrie Underwood
- I just cant live a lie

Lately nothing I do ever seems to please you
And maybe turning my back would be that much easier
Cause hurtful words are all that we exchange
But I can't watch you walk away

Could I forget about the way it feels to touch you?
And all about the good times that we've been through
Could I wake up without you every day?
Would I let you walk away?

No, I can't learn to live without
And I can't give up on us now

[Chorus]
Oh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vowI promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Could I forget the look that tells me that you want me?
And all the reasons that make loving you so easy
The kiss that always makes it hard to breathe
The way you know just what I mean

No, I can't learn to live without
Ohh, so don't you give up on us now

Ohh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Ohh, and I don't wanna try

Ohhhh, I know I could say we're through
And tell myself I'm over you
But even if I made a vow I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

I just can't live a lie

But even if I made a vow
I promise not to miss you now
And try to hide the truth inside
I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie

Oh, I cant live a lie [x2]

2006-04-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

WHEE!!
lol. im darn high now pls!
i loved the band concert!
haha.
actually i wasn't going
then after gb i really wanted to go
then at 7 i couldnt stand it
so i called my parrents
lol. surprisingly they allowed me to go!!
lol. so fun pls.
haha.
was highing throughout the entire concert
went crazy and everything
hahaha!
im so happy i can't talk about details now
another time maybe. heh.
now im like so high!
haha.
they played very well!
im so proud of PL BAND! x)

2006-04-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

EEE!
i haven been bloging for so long.
lol.
im so lazy. heh.
supposed to take napfa today
but i didn't
wasnt feeling well.
stupid stomachache.
like pain then not
after a while pain again.
so dumb.
well mrs teo asked me to see doctor and get mc
but like dont want.
waste my time only
i shall just ask dad to write a letter
mans. i think im having 2.4 tomorrow
i dont want!
but actually i dont mind
heh. im contradicting myself
but im afraid 2mr stomachache again..
if really like that then i shall seriously go see doctor
dont know whats happening to me
what if i die
choy
what rubbish am i talking pls.
eee better not continue or else ill talk more rubbish.

sometimes you just wont understand.

2006-03-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since ive blogged
i just want to say sorry to EVERYBODY
yea. so sorry
sigh. im darn tired.
and depressed lol.
mood swings again i suppose
whatever
they will go away sooner or later
and eunice helps to cheer me up
thanks! x)
today stayed back and helped gen they all in the arifact
haha
it was fun
then after we finished
i went to mop the floor
felt like some auntie?
lol.
then went back to class and found that it was locked?!!
crapp. then had to go to the office and get spare key
then the guy was like no key no key
what the heck.
whatever lah.
anyway in the end we managed to get keys frm the office
yea.
then eunice's dad sent madeline me n kim to the bus stop
haha
lol. im lazy to type more.

sometimes tdflh
i dont know why
i just dread tch
here i dont feel lacf
there's just nmpc
i cant even have adcwy
what is tfb

2006-03-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

ive come to realise how important one word is
a word so plain yet sophisticated
some people might look down on it
thinking its just an ordinary word
but when said with true sincerity
it can touch hateful hearts
and replace them with a sense of peace
it solves the toughest quarrells
it calms the angry soul
5 simple letters
1 significant meaning

~~sorry~~

yes. and i want to tell everyone ive did wrong to or let them down, disappoint them, or hurt them, cause them pain, maybe even angered.
i just want to tell you all

~~imsorry~~
ihopeyouputthepastbehindandstartafresh

2006-03-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM CAMP!
heh. super tired.
and im too lazy to explain and elaborate
heh. maybe tomorrow.
im not really feelin well now

~~what do you want me to do~~
i've had enough of you scoldings
somehow, sometimes when i come 'home'
i dont feel at home at all
all your scolding and your nonsense
please just give me a break
dont flare up on me just because you are having bad mood swings
you think i dont have them eh
if you cant even trust you own daughter
sometims i wonder who do you even trust

2006-03-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

bleh. did the morning devotion today
was super scared pls
i could feel myself rushing through the prayer
mdm dhillion told me i was too soft and my words were unclear
sigh
anyway next term i not doing so not so bad lah.
was waiting the whole entire day for chappel can
lol. had fun during chapel
jumped about!
esp during ONE WAY!
lol. reminded me of cca fair.
coulden concentrate during chem lessons after that
heh.
dont even know what the teacher is talking about cause i was singing in my head
and i kept calling maryanne in a whispery voice
lol.
received a bar of chocolate frm my angel today
her note was pretty
YOU MADE ME HAPPY ANGEL! XD

2006-03-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

ohh. surprisingly i passed my geog common test
lets just wait for the final report slip
must prepare my parents slowly for the shock.
today went to church
was rather orange.
haha
specs orange
hairband orange
necklace orange
skirt orange
haha.
im so orange
i TOTALLY LOVE ORANGE MAN!
heh.
shifu so lucky.
get to make new specs
she couldn't decide between orange and white. lol.
just like me when i had to buy my specs
but in the end i decided to get orange
lol. shi fu on the other hnad was MUCH luckier than me
she got to buy BOTH!!
im like darn jealous of her
lol.
nvm
im happy enough to have my orange specs x)
gosh i sudddenly rmbed..
wed i got the devotion thing.
sheesh lah
darn scared
must say in front of the whole entire school
mans.
i'm nervous even when i think about it.
must go practise..

2006-03-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

hahax.
my predictions are so accurate i cant stand myself
lol.
out of the 5 subs i predicted
i failed 4 already
geog haven gotten back
ha.
8198
yes ppl go buy 4-d or toto
use this no.
got high change of winning
lol.
if need 5 no. den wait for my geog
ha.
lol. failing EVERYTHING
heck.
im immune.
every one is like falling sick
bleh
i dont want.
i must remain strong
haha
lol. im gonna dedicate a post to rachel
so U better be honoured

RACHEL: hey! take care ok!
dont be too stressed or whatever.
just concentrate on getting well.
if got mc. get dont come to school.
stay at home and recover.
dont do drill and dont exert your self.
stop being so stubborn and listen to me.
lol. yea.. so u takecare and recover soon.
i miss ur craziness.

2006-02-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

mans.
the last two weeks were really stressful
im very tired, depressed and drained
common tests were bad
very bad
got back my phy paper today
best lah.
i failed it
VERY badly
i've predicted my results
5 subjects i'll fail
chem phy geog a math e math
the rest i hope i can pass barely
gosh my parents will be so angry
and very disappointed
i feel so useless
im such a failure some times
failing has become so common
it seems like a routine.
i better break out of it soon
term 2 must be better.

sometimes
when times get real bad
life just seems so meaningless
i ask myself
whats the purpose of hanging on
holding on
to nothing but thin air
i want to let go
to give up
but i know
i must stay on
i have to
i will

2006-02-16T18:45:00.000+08:00

today was just a horrible day.
geog test was just plain crapp
i didn't even know how to do at all.
RAHH!!
chi teacher scolded us for our dirty class rm
heh..
but whatever. i dont care.
ms choong wasn't here
so had 2 free period.
sick lah.
only once a week and got lit and shes not here on this paticular day.
i dont want to elaborate anymore.
im tired.
i dont want to hear any more of your nonsense.

~~i was thinking back.~~
of when we USED to be friends?
ibet you forgot that LONG ago
i know that if we do it wrongly we have to be corrected
but i felt that when u 'corrected' me it was because of a different reason.
i know it
and you do
somehow the way you said it just broke me
i cried.
but you wouldn' know
you dont have to
i still don't get why u are treating me this way
you have no right to be anry with me.
you were the one who let me down.
and now when i have forgiven you you are angry with me
what kind of nonsense is this
i try to smile at you
talk to you
and you just give me this kind of attitude.
what is this man.
seriously.
what crapp is this.
i suggest you go and reflect. think about it
and i do hope our friendship can be restored.

2006-02-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

lol. i haven been updating..
heh. rather lazy.
tuesday's off!
cause of good O level results
but its valentines day..
they should have made monday off
den we can give our presents on valentines day itself
got most of my presents today
felt so embarressed cause i'm giving on wed
lol. wait ok people!
im give ur on wed..
heh..
today me gen rae and kim went to the BIG field
to relief stress.
lol.
rae and kim sat on the steps
gen and i explored
haha
den we screamed!!
and and felt less stressed
hahaa
good way to relief stress
haha
elizabeth gave me a pretty ORANGE flower
im like totlally in love with it
its really nice
nicer than kims
haha
cause it really opened beautifully
the colour is super bright
haha
HAPPY HAPPY
i shall take a picture of it later
haha
yes yes..
rahh
ive still got LOTS of presents to wrap
thanks to kim..
make me wrapp all.
haha
yepp
but i know i wrap nicer den her
so i rap better
later they are disgusted at kims wrapping
OPPS!!
haha
sorry lah. i was just joking kim.
dun take it to heart.
lol.
yepp..
i shall go and sort out my gifts for u people now! x)

and..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! <3

2006-02-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

hmms..
been tired.
really tired.
got ushering to do for prefects insatllation 2mr
i'll feel weird
like usher for an event that i used to be in..
but the good thing is can lease class 1145
haha
so happy.. lol cheap thrill
tests are comin up
irrtating
next whole week got test
study stduy study
i think i will be failing all the way
mans..
i need help!

~~im trying to forgive you~~
~~please dont make it so difficult to do it~~

2006-02-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

just watched i not stupid too
lol
was crying alot
like tears were
flowing and
flowing and
flowing..
lol.
guess it was kinda touchin
but funny at the same time
yea.
bought this container of candy floss
ate it all up during the movie
my hands were like so sticky
then some more i had not enough tissue
then my face was wet.
lol
yea.
after the movie din have time to get valentine day gifts.
mans.
shall have to get them another day.
yea.

2006-02-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

bleh.
stupid geog map quiz went really WELL
like dunno how to do at all
anyhow fill in nonsense.
got one country i anyhow make up
wad ketaga or sth
come to think of it
its so funny
well, if i fail then i fail.
i dont care anymore
ive learnt to cope with failure after so much failures
so i dont really care anymore
yea..
want to go out tmr
shall wait and see..

having serious mood swings`

2006-02-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

whoo..
today went to school after a LONG time
lol. was super tired
sommore today's recess was like so early
8.30. bleh
yea.
had my a math class test
yepp. u guessed it
i think im gonna fail again
but what ever
geog map quiz 2mr.
bleh. i cant do mapping
just cant rmb a thing.
school gets more and more boring day by day
like same old routine
wake up
go school
study
go home
like we do the same things every single day
mans..
i so wann BREAK out of this boring routine and do something
NEW
yea..the week ends are appoaching
at least that gives me some comfort.
still..
there's more school after that
test and more test.
u just cant avoid them after all
can you?

~~ive decided to be MERCIFUL to you.~~
yea.. and forget all the mean things youve done
and you. please stop irritating me and making me feel angry
like when im not in a good mood you shoulden come and continue to piss me off.
i just might explode someday
RAHHH!!
and stop being so selfish
spare a thought for others cant you..

2006-01-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

Tell The World That - hillsongs

Don't want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I'll stand for you if it's all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it's the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You
C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that

About You

2006-01-28T16:59:00.000+08:00

RAHHH!!
im so pissed
thanks to some stupid people who ruined my entire day.
gosh.
im so pissed i cant even type properly lah.
thanks. thanks so much
you ruined my day
my reputation
my friendships
my whole life
im so not gonna forgive you.

2006-01-27T19:52:00.000+08:00

WHEE!!!

our class won the class deco competition!

so super happy can.

our level was the best level!

and we are the best in the level

means we are the best in the school!!

IM SO SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!!!

all the a2 class won except sec 4

sad..

4b1 won!

haha. happy for them!

stil love that class lots.

yepp. so high. i love our banner! x))

hahah

yepp. so so so happy.

duno wad else to say. heh

just read a story frm the net

link is at shifu's blog.

the i believe you thing

its so touching that i cried

lol. im so emotional

stupid lah.

read halfway then they say cannot read le

must buy the book. CRAP.

yea. but the story is kinda nice

yepp.

yar and i wanted to wish everybody a

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

hope ur get lots of ang paos! x))

2006-01-25T19:05:00.000+08:00

wow. i failed my 1st test of the year
i congratulate myself
the result so not bad
1/12. pretty eh
lolx.
kinda expected it though.
actually i knw the method
but when i was doing the test i went BLANK
lolx. too nervous cause 1st test mah
only ard 5 ppl passed lah.
yea.
now i have to let my parents sign.
like best. so gonna die.
was doing my e math hw
like dunno how to do at all
those that i 'thought' i knew
the answer turned out rong.
bleh
how dumb can i get
den SHE was like scolding us.
saying we were lousier than the b classes (no offence)
saying SHE had to spoon feed us
and blah blah blah.
pissed. like totally
den SHE made us do the long long methods lah
like want us to write
( x 6 both sides) or
(+2 both sides)
gosh
damn pek lah
treat us like wad. p1 izzit
bleh.
i'm officially failing.
i neeeeeeed helpp
SOMEBODY!! HELP ME!!!

p.s ppl who read this and thinkk that they are free to help me please kindly leave a tag on my board. thank you. and of course i need to know who you are not some unknown person frm outerspace. thank you once again.

2006-01-24T22:42:00.000+08:00

just finished chinese tuition.
did some interesting stuff today.
yea.
did chinese calligraphy.
i rote 'fu' 'chun' and 'ji'
lolx..
now my fingers are like RED
esp the fingertips.
lolx. proof kae.
hahahx..
gonna bring some nice looking ones to sch
for the chinese new year deco.
yea
happy happy
kinda patched things up with hugger
and were talking to each other now.
feel so much better.
life was horrible not speaking to her.
hahahx.
yepp. im tired and i wanna slp.
lolx. i think chinese calligraphy is fun
but i rite until like super ugly
im bringin 3 to sch and only 1 is i actually rite one.
lolx. the other two is my tuition teacher rite
hahahx.
rae's singing 2mr..
and she plans to tske her 'revenge'..
GO RACHEL!!
make sure i hear her voice through the mike! x))

2006-01-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

whee!
im finally blogging in like a million years
lolx. too lazy. busy too.yea.
had 1st math test today
congratuate me on failning it
yea.
heck lah.
supposed to be doing tuition hw.
but i forgot to bring back my ke ben
so too bad!
hahah. finished my sch hw le
so now can kinda relax
but got to revise geog leta
or else i wun understand wad ms ting is teachin 2mr
bleh.
somehow i kinda regret takin geog
but i know in the long run it will be better for me
i hope
hmms.
well off i go to finish up my dinner!
den more studying for me. :)

gimyssm
hiwwcsctteo
imthygm
imtmysm
aiaim
y dH

2006-01-17T19:02:00.000+08:00

ive got a conclusion after 2 wks of sec 3 life:
im so gonna fail man. im too dumb to be true.
like dun even understand anything lah
summore is all the impt impt subjects
ok.. basically its almost every subject
e math:
ms kok at first teach slow den i understand
den suddenly she come talk so fast den i blur liao
a math:
im just TOO slow for the teacher.
phy:
i understand 1st chp dun understand 2nd chap
lolx. only understand like 1/2 or less..
chem:
i HATE chem.
like TOTALLY
im just a failure at chem
ever simce sec 2 i'm been faillin like 2/3 of my chem tests.
lolx. how i wish chem was not compulsory
geog:
i also dun like.
ms ting talk so fast!!
i better go read my text book like 10 times before she teach
or else ill NEVER understand
looks like sec 3 is gonna be tough for me

dear god
please make me smarter and less dumb
i pray that i will understnad whatever nonsense the teacher is talking about
and that i will not be so blur
i pray that i will concentrate in class and stop doing rubbish
thank you
in jesus name i pray
AMEN!! x))
im gonna put everything into his hands now

~~iatmnttaya~~
bsijchi
idekwily
sbydekie
wtuotaywydekwia
bwisyf
ifsmb
yjbumed

2006-01-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

lolx. today kim came late
scare me can.
i thot she sick or sth.
she woke up late.
or rather "her dad woke her up late".
lolx.
was strolling down for assembly
den saw a bunch of sec 4s at one corner..
was wondering wad dey were doing dere.
noticed angeline cause she was 'protruding' out of grp
lolx.
den wen walking near them i dunno y i just suddenly turned right
den guess who i saw
SHIFU!
and she was giving some funny face
den i realised i was supposed to do the pop thing for her..
i SCREAMED and ran down the stairs dragging kim along..
lolx.(hope she doesnt read this)
yea. eng was another screaming time.
hahax. lesson was ending den suddenly the front people started screaming.
as you know screaming is VERY contagious
so in the end the whole class ening up screaming.
i was screaming too and i didnt know y
den heard that there was a flying cockroach..
i started screaming more..
loh.. in the end it was killed with a newspaper.
lolx. all the cockroach 'juice' was like squished out.
gross.. hahax. funny funny.
yea..
kim wants me to blog about food
today during recess there was like a HUGE HUGE crowd
din manage to buy much food
kim was hungry like mad
lolx.
den lessons ended at 2.20
by the time go lunch no more food le.
crapp.
din go for hse mtg n nyaa talk
had dental
yar cahnged the colours to red orange and alittle gold
haha
so chinese new year
hahahx.
yea.
after dental wen to library to wait for dad n do hw
took out my a math hw
look at first qn
dunno how to do liao
gave up.
put back to book in my bag and went ard to look for story bok to read.
heh
dad came and we went back le..
hahax. today was funny! hahahx. i ove to scream..
2mr muz run away frm shifu again.. heh

2006-01-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

just watched some tv show
they were renovating the ppl's hse
then they gave this girl such a WONDERFUL room!!!!!!!!!
and i mean real wonderful!!!!
the walls were BRIGHT ORANGE!!!!!!!!!
and the bed was LIME GREEN!!!!!!!!!
gosh!! that lucky lucky girl!!
i want that room!!
i really really REALLLLLLY DO!!!!!!!!!
man! im so gonna paint my room orange and green when i get to move hse
eventually..
now i shall dream of that room
[ looks up to space and sighs dreamily]
lolx
im gonna plan the colour scheme
hahax.
and keep myself buzy til that day comes
when i can finally get THE room!!

2006-01-13T20:38:00.000+08:00

today was friday the 13th.
hahax
unlucky day.
hahahx.
was caught during gb for having short shorts
like what the heck can
my pants is longer den pe shorts by like alot
den there was a girl who was wearing pe shorts who wasnt caught
like its so not fair can
pek cek..
had my mood spoilt lah
well.. but cheered up later
yea..
so anyway. now i have to go and buy berms
bleh
after cca went to the boared to sign up for the a& d thing
den moli was dere
she was pestering
i mean PESTERING
me to do the lollipop song for her
haha..
i jian chi dun wan do..
muahahhaha
den she dun let me go home
haha
den i chen ji when she talkin 2 ppl den i run away..
hahah
im a naughty tu di..
cannot blame wad..
naughty shi fu sure got naughty tun di rite! x))

2006-01-12T17:43:00.000+08:00

lolx. today's morning singspiration was weird.
sing half way den start to rain. hahax
God must be touched and started to cry.
hahaax.
yea.. sch was kinda boring.
we missed our photo taking slot so we had to go during lunch
sianz. was hungry lah. could wait for geog to end so could eat..
hahahx. pigg me
after sch went to iskandars class for mtg
talk some stuf den mtg ovr
was helping breanna make the cross things
yar
was trying to pronouce jarelyn's chi name
dunno how to pronouce.
den she wanna know what was my chi name
i go cover my name tagg den she wanna remove my hand
stupid lah.
'wrestled' amd screamed
pain can..
in the end i managed to run away and take out my name tag
den she cannot see
hahax.
eunice walked pass so i went out to talk to her
den she kept calling my chi name
IRRITATING
told her to stop calling and shut up
lol
den went back to class to pack my bag.
realised that i left my foolscap in 4a2 so went back to take
den wen i walkin back to class dat time den
STUPID EUNICE WENT TO TEL JARELYN MY CHI NAME
IRRITAING!!!!
was so angry until i laughed?!!
wacked eunice HARD
stupid
den went to canteen to get a drink
eunice was making me angry again
den i started choking
i think partly cause i was drinkin water
partly cause i was so angry
lol
den she wacked me 3 times on the back!!
SUPER PAIN CAN!!
i think its briusied lah.
irritaing.
eunice went to staff room
followed her
and scolded her summore
and wacked her
hahax. felt better
lol
den went hme with kim
went to the play ground and walked on that wobbly standing thing
lol so funny can
den kim was scared
hahax. sudden rained heavier and we headed for shelther
den went home..
lol.
im gonna continue scolding eunice 2mr..
make me soooo irritated. grr.
hahahax.

2006-01-11T19:11:00.000+08:00

today went well. kinda.
sth funny happened in the morning
kim owed me money
so she took out the money and said
"na. $12."
den i looked atr the money.
it was 2 $10 bills and 1 $2 bill
den i said
"wow so $12 ah"
den she said
"not meh!"
den i was like
"yar $12"
she saw it and scaremed
i started running
lol. hahax. funny funny
den rae came to look for me
den i went down with her yar
cause she singing..
i singing tmr.. yea
hope all goes well and i dun freak out again.
ms kok din come for e math kesson 2 day
stay in class to do HER math hw.
she sure noe how to occupy our time
by the time finish her hw bell ring le.
lol.
during physics another funny thing happened.
mr loh was teaching den there was a class havin pe downstairs.
he talk half way
den SUDDENLY
AHHHHHHHHHHH
dere was like some super high pitch scream
den we laugh like siso
den he continue talkin
den the person scream summore
and we laugh summore
den in the end he gave up
lesson ending anyway so he say 2mr den continue teaching.
hahax
chapel was ok
after chapel saw rae n eunice
den we crapped around
someone commented we were twins because of the specs.
haha
den as we walkin out of the hall
weiwen passed den the same person said
TRIPLETS
lol
crap lah she..

den weiwen was so blur. lol.
walked the long way back to class to pei eunice

yar..
after sch had cell
ms anguilla shared
den wen she asked hu wanted to share next week
we all kept quiet
so in da end she had to share again.
lol
yea.
thats how today went
x))
moods much better n not so cold le! x)

2006-01-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

just took out the blazer from my cupboard
felt really sad
like i never even got to wear it
at least i could look at it. lol
yea. will be returning it 2mr.
at least i stil get to keep my tie
wish i didnt have to quit
i'll keep all the happy memories
and just throw away all the bad ones.
keep them in a box and lock it.
and the key i'll hide it in my heart.

2006-01-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

its been cold lately..

just wish the rain would stop

let the bright sun come out once again..

hahax. like writing compo .. x))

stupid rain.

but still..

some times the rain is kinda good

when ever i walk in the rain

i feel that all my troubles are being washed away.

when i close my eyes and feel the drizzle

yea..

lately my mood seems to be affected though.

been feelin kinda down.

esp at home.

the house seems so small.

school's better.

yea.

home's real boring

I WANNA SCREAM!!!!

2006-01-09T18:36:00.000+08:00

had my first amaths lesson today.
un-suprisingly i cant catch up..

bleh.

sick lah.

like when she finish doing the question

im like just beginning.

sure fail one.

summore she was like kinda revising sec 2 stuff..

bleh. i'm gonna fail..

other subs are kinda ok i guess..

shall not worry too much..

hmm..

i stil dont know if i made the right decision in taking pure geog

im sumhow regretting it..

well.. what can i do now anyway

i love lit!! x))

macbeth seems kinda interseting..

hahax. i remember debating with my cousin..

geog vs lit

obviously i was on the lit side.

yepp.. hahax.. we debate until like super out of point..

hahax..

yea.. i suppose i'll stil love lit..

~~bleh. stop pissin me off. i cant take it anymore.~~

2006-01-07T19:03:00.000+08:00

cca fair went GREAT! yeah..

creative drill was so scarry..

wen i saluted i could see my hand shaking..

lol. seriously scared.

but im happy i did it! x))

yeah.. went ard promoting gb

scream and shout

lol.

im too lazy to update details

hahax.. yepp..

after that went for devotion lunch at macs

me n rach took like a super long time to decide what to eat

lol.

i was supposed to buy of ms koh.

she had to wait so long for her food.

i think me n rach like stood dere 4 10min deciding..

hahax..

talked about some leading in worship stuff

8 of march.. DIE

thats all i can say..

die

2006-01-06T20:47:00.000+08:00

woke early this morning to check my mail if i received moy kits email of the article pics. bleh. it wasnt dere.. anyway today went relatively well except for the freaking out during full dress rehearsal for cca fair.. which is 2MR!! reached home to check my email again for moy kits mail and it wasnt dere. called her and she was at chalet!! Wad The Heck pls.. im here dying cause ms Ho needs the article and she is at chalet. WOW. saw michelle on msn so asked her to send me. yeah.. actually my msn is not working well so i cant receive things set through msn but dunno how come suddenly can.. must be when i prayed God answered. thank you Lord. yeah.. finally received all the pics and sent the mail to ms ho.. feel so much relieved. yeapp. and i coulden do dis without michelle. THANKS MICHELLE.. yea really grateful to her or else i would have DIED.. lol. alls well now i hope.. OH NO!!! must go polish boots now..

2006-01-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

well talked to ms gan today. shal not elaborate. had extra lessons today until 2 20. 2mr until 2 55.. got elect lit. n i haven done my hw. shal go do now. yea. stil neeeda send article to ms ho.. waiting for moy kits pic.. 2mr is full dress rehearsal.. sians. so scary. dunno how on cca fair. sure freak out.. bleh. mood not good now. i aint gonna say anything more. whats the point anyway.

2006-01-04T18:58:00.000+08:00

Mummy sent this to me i think she received it from some subscriber or sth.. i think its really meaningful..

How We Deal With Mistakes
Human beings are imperfect.

We are fallible.

No matter how hard we try,how wise and experienced we are,

or how often we practise, no one can escape the fact that sometimes, we fail.

We all make mistakes.

What sets the winners from the losers is how they handle setbacks.

Do we get upset?

Do we go into denial?

Do we make ourselves feel so bad

that it becomes harder and harder to leave the ground each time we fall?

Mistakes are not necessarily bad, meaningless or useless.

They are a crucial element in our path of knowledge and improvement.

The more mistakes you make, the more you learn.

The more you learn, the more you grow,

and the more likely you'll be able to shine brighter in future.

When you were a young growing child, how were you supposed to know the oven was hot?

Or that when you say something impolite you'll hurt someone's feelings?

If you make a mistake, at least you made a valiant attempt.

At least you wouldn't be stuck in that limbo of not knowing whether you would succeed or not. Very often, we take mistakes far too seriously.

So you made a mistake, so what?

The world keeps turning, and the bugs keep biting.

It's not a question of "I made a mistake, I'm so sorry, I was such a fool".

Rather, it's a question of "Ok, I messed up.

What am I going to do about it?

How can I avoid making the same mistake again?"

The best leaders out there are the ones who made the most mistakes but learnt from them.

The ones that never discovered or acknowledged their faux pas

never made it into the business world and

never made a difference in their own life, or theworld.

We all fail.

But only a handful truly learn from their mistakes.

And these are the ones who will eventually go on to achieve great success and wisdom.

yeah.. i make mistakes too.

and so do you.

2006-01-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

yeah. today was better.. i suppose i'll get used to the weirdness day by day.. din talk to ms gan today again. she wants to see me 2mr during silent reading.. sigh.. after sch talked to ms koh . yar. explained to her why i quited and how i felt and stuff liddat.. she told me roughly what ms gan is going to talk to me about.. im so dead.. sigh.. she also gave me sme feedback and stuff.. now must go and reflect.. sigh.. had creative drill after that. i think we need more practices.. but i doubt we all can commit to them.. i hope all goes well.. yar!! i and stil need to get my hairnet. it has 1 biggggg giant hole. hahax. yepp.. shall go now and finish up my hw and the gb article so i can send 2 ms ho by 2mr! x))

2006-01-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

today was just a horible day. i kept feeling that people were staring at me. i felt so weird.. den wen i saw other prefect seniors i wanna duo kai ta men.. sighh. summore 2mr got spotcheck. usually i would be the one doing the spotcheck.. now i'm the one being spotchecked.. i hope i get over it soon.. sigh.. this morning went to find ms gan bout the quiting and stuff. yar. i was like super scared lah. den i went to find her and she said she was not free now but i must come and find her by today. she was like so scary lah. den i was worrying for the whole entire day. then i went to find her after school. den she said she had to go and eat her lunch now and she had a meeting later. so i have to find her ~~2mr~~ after school. bleh. den she turned and walked away. i was like so scared lah. i'm so scared. super scared. argh.. i'm going to die like this.. den rachel lah. see me then run away.. x(( sigh i hope all goes well wen i see ms gan 2mr. i hope she doesnt scold me..

2006-01-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

well.. all is settled.. yeah.. dad spoke to mrs tan and i'll stop my pb duties as of 2mr.. sigh.. it'll really be different for me.. wearing the red tie instead of the yellow one.. hop all goes well..

2006-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERBODY!!! x)))

hahax.. my new year resolutions..

- study hard and get good results

- make more friends in my new class!

- continue to grow even taller

- get tanner

- dont grow any fatter

- spend less [lol]

- and many many more i haven thought of..

2005-12-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

im so confused. i dont even know what tie to wear on the first day of school. do i have to do my duties? sigh. how i wish everything was back to normal and i would have to worry about anything at all.

i miss those days.

2005-12-21T19:23:00.000+08:00

you keep thinking that im so buzy. that im so stressed. yes i cant deny that i might be stressed over school and stuff but im most stressed out because of you. you think you are trying to help. and i appreciate that. but i would prefer that you just dont 'care'. you want me to quit this quit that. dont do anything. do you know how difficult it is for me. can you just let me do what i want. im not even causing you any trouble. fine. now you already FORCED me to quit. so can you just let go and leave me alone. go bother about your own stuff. im tired and i want to rest. just let me do what i wish to do. whenever you bring up this issuse you always make it seem that i am ALWAYS in the wrong. and i am always the one. always the one crying myself to sleep.

~~icanonlylooktoyouforcomfortdearlord~~

2005-12-07T19:48:00.000+08:00

BACK FRM CAMBODIA.. hahax.. actually i was back on the 5th.. heh.. but was sick.. n now stil sick.. i miss the kids in cambodia.. so cute!! esp those at the dumbsite school.. they kept holding my finger n not letting go.. hahax.. carried this cute little girl.. hahax.. saw lots of things dere.. really learnt alot during the trip.. but i'm seriously too lazy to update.. mayb next time lah.. now i juz hope i get well..

2005-11-28T18:08:00.000+08:00

whee~ going to cambodia 2mr.. hmms.. pretty excited.. but also abit the bu she de lah.. hahax.. i will miss my bloster! lolx.. hahax.. what can i say.. went back to school today to reherse the skits.. lolx.. how the ppl dere lke like i skits.. i personally find them really interseting.. hahax. internet has been really crappy today.. keeps getting disconnected.. hahax.. have to finish packin my bag.. all the last minute stuff.. den have to make some calls.. X))

2005-11-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

i think i'm dying.. ive got so much homework to do!! and the best thing is.. i haven even started?!! shall have to cramp during dec.. nov has been seriously busy.. so many things so many camps.. but i enjoyed them all.. well.. mostly.. hahax.. will be flying off to cambodia for mission trip soon.. a bit bu she de leh.. come to think of it.. 1 wk.. hahax.. ok.. its not that long.. i think i'll miss my phone.. lol.. all the chatting on the phone and all the msgin.. at leasts it helps me to save my msges.. have got no more to spare.. lolx.. will miss keekee and her forgetfulness.. hahax.. all the ka- jiao-ing. lolx.. miss moli's lollipop song too.. POP!! hahax.. will miss all the stuff toys on my bed too! hahax.. okok.. enough of missing or else i'll just cry.. [exageration] hmms.. shall have to rush my dad to pack the medicines for me...

2005-11-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

hmms.. feeling much better today.. fever subsided..sickening thing is that i've got tuition.. after tuition will go down to ps to me dad n bro.. dads buying him his present.. while i need to buy stuff for my mission trip.. hahax.. maybe can do a little window shopping too.. hahax.. well.. 2mr we'll be celebrating bro's birthday even though its long past.. hahax.. haven even bought his present.. don't even know wad he wans.. shall get it later at ps.. fortunately he doesnt expect much.. hahax.. mayb i shal buy him a bag of chips and some other stuff.. that should satisfy him.. hahax.. i feel so cheapskate.. yepps.. shal go and prepare for tuition now.. its starting in like 10 mins!! and i haven finished my work.. BEST..

2005-11-24T16:26:00.000+08:00

fine.. i'm sick.. thanks to the flu jab.. having fever bleh`.. the only thing i do is sleep.. so meaningless.. i need sombody to come and entertain me.. can't wait for the fever to go away.. i wanna play n pack my bag for mission trip.. i don't care.. i better recover before mission trip.. hmms.. i think i'll be bringing luggage for mission trip.. i'm too lazy to bring the duffle bag.. luggage got wheels mah.. hahax.. den no need to carry.. so its settled.. i'l bring my luggage.. hmms.. what if i'm the only one brinigin luggage.. hmms.. heck lah.. i'll bring wads best for me.. hmms.. muz go and buy potato chips.. i need to eat them.. 2 cans? mayb 3.. hahax.. i hope someone's bringin chocolates.. heh.. well.. received news that we'll be slpin the the hotel with our buddies.. n my buddie is ms seah.. sadd.. cannot talk at night.. hahax.. cannot haf my midnight snacks too.. hmms.. maybe can convince her to eat with me.. hahax.. so fattening.. lol.. i pray i get well soon.. pray pray pray..

2005-11-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

heh.. ive been like super duper lazy to update my blog.. camps all finished left mission trip. hahax.. i miss mega camp.. so irritating lah my dad.. dun let me go sentosa.. hmph! hahax.. at least he's letting me go to the mission trip x) i think even preparing for this misson trip has taught me alot more about myself. through the prayer sessions the last few days i really felt that God is with us and that he will always be around to help us. i felt some sort of feeling but i just dont really know how to explain myself.. the more i try to understand the more confused i get.. lolx.. maybe its God's plan to reveal it to me as we go for the mission trip..

~~dear lord i seak your guidance as i live each day~~

2005-11-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

whee~ back frm mega camp.. but i kinda miss it too.. hahax.. and all my grp mates.. NYLON RAWKS.. i now v lazy.. shal update 2mr.. hahax.. today came back.. bathe for like ard 1 hr hahax.. den i eat luch den slp for 4 hr.. wahahaha.. miss my bed.. camp was fun.. really fun.. x)

ubtisimdesouy

2005-11-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

yepp. changed skin again. not very suprising eh.. been changing skin alot. somehow i just don't seem to like the skin anymore after awhile. maybe this one will stay longer. had 1st aid today. did cpr.. so crap.. i think i'll like comfirm fail it. i was locating the bone and i looked at the instructer to check if i was right but she just shuged so i carried on. then she said.. congratulations you have just broke the person's bone. and i started laughing. i was trying the give the dummy some rescue breathing thing but all i ended up doing was to laugh. how dumb.. haha. i realied that the dummy was quite poor thing cause many others broke its bones too.. hahax.. when to ps for lunch again. took neos. they came out quite nice.

on our way home kim n i decided to go to ps again.. actually it was more like i wanted to go and i dragged her along. heh.. kim wanted to buy a wallet so we went walking around. saw a nice ripcurl pencilcase but sadly what i want is a bag!! n my dad won't let me get a new school ba. he says that i should wait until my bag spoils or wait until sec 4. like wadeva.. hmms.. i'll go save money and buy one. but that will take me forever. walking around to find nice wallets.. wanted to go into precious thots but saw teresa michelle and other seniors outside they told us that inside got filming.. ooh. saw pierie png acting with a small girl. as usual kim was blur so i went to show her lah.. yepp.. din want to go home but kim kinda dragged me so.. what can i do.. went home and so yar.. here i am..

2005-10-31T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmms.. holidays are here.. but stil have to go for 1st aid course.. n muz take test.. sure fail wan lah.. i lyk forget wadeva i learnt le.. bleah.. but the good thing is that now i can finally keep my nails.. hahax.. long long nails.. haven been kepping themlong scince.. dunnno when.. hahax. painted dem.. the transparent colour.. shiny shiny.. hahax.. i'm so vain.. bleah.. wdv.. ok enuf about my nails.. arh.. my dad wanna use the com le.. grr. he use so long n let me use so short.. bleah`

2005-10-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

yepp.. i went into a2.
my so called dream class
but somehow instead of feeling happy i feel..
sad?!
i don't know.
i really don't know
it was me myself who put down that option to go to pure geog
but i know that deep down inside i wanted lit
but people say geog is easier to score
and lit is more difficult
i'm so confused now
i think i'm kind regretting it
but yet a small part of me is relieved that i didn't get into pure lit
i think..
i am so super confused
i really love lit
but my geog is better than my lit
there's lots of memorizing for geog
and less for lit
i guess since my geog is better now its safer to stick with the geog
even if i want to appeal my parents might not allow
i don't know.
but my passion for lit is still strong
very strong
i guess its God's will to put me into this class
He has His plan for me
so i should respect his decision and not question Him any further
i hope i'll get a good geog teacher..
well..
now all i can o is juz wait earnestly for every lit lesson to come and enjoy it to the fullest..

dear lord i pray

2005-10-27T18:30:00.000+08:00

why?!why?!why?! why on earth must 1st aid course start tomorrow?!! sigh.. den i might not get my report book back!! even i f i do.. i'll have t o get it super early.. then i won't know what class my friends will be going to.. won't have the qi fen.. arh.. will miss my class.. sigh.. 1st aid course ahhh.. bleah.. anyways.. i'm quite happy 2 day.. got 3b1's photo.. x) i asked rach.goh to help me order.. heh.. whee.. will paste it on my wall.. wheeee~ hmmss. managed to sell finish all the jelly n cupcakes.. ms yoong bought the last 3.. she paid 4 dollars!! n asked us to keep the change.. so nice of her.. hahax.. now i got like 27 more car decals to sell.. ppl want to buy?!! very nice! x)

2A2'05 forever-